This post is going to be the true definition of UPS and DOWNS as I mention in my headline thingie up thurr. I just hope my theories are right in the long run. Oh, it’s also kind of a gross post…beware!

OK, so I haven’t posted in like two weeks.  Did I fall off the wagon again? No. Did I fall into the hospital again? Why, yes. But before I get ahead of myself, let’s talk about week one, and the incredible, delightful, inspiring, rewarding, and truly awesome weigh in I had.

Last week’s weight (2/23/11): 206.8
3/2/11 Weight: 199.7
Loss: 7.1 pounds!!!!!

OH YEAH BABY! I hit ONEDERLAND yet again (barely) and had an INCREDIBLE Biggest Loser loss!! It made the previous week’s lackluster number seem worth all the hunger and exercise, and I was smiling all day…for the most part. (I’ll get to that…) Sure, I thought “this number can’t be right” and weighed again and again and still got the same number. Clothes were looser, so maybe it was true? Maybe? 

As happy as I was with that weigh-in (and trust me, I was THRILLED…) I wasn’t feeling like myself. This was on Wednesday, and starting that previous Monday I had been feeling very weak and just…weird. Part of it was worrying, because I was…well, passing blood in my number twos.  Gross, I know, but there’s no other way to say it. When I say passing blood, I mean red and black, and if any of you have ever had GI problems before, you know that black/tarry blood is “old blood” meaning it’s coming from up higher, like your stomach, whereas red blood is “fresh” and could be from your bum, something small like a tear or something. Unfortunately, mine was a mixture of both and it was getting worse. By Wednesday, I was freaking out big time and planned my doctor visit for Thursday. Real quick: to make what could be a long story short, I’ve had these problems before. I’ve been hospitalized twice (in 2002 and 2004) for passing (black) blood and have had scopes and tests out the ying yang (had both the throat cam and the butt cam) and they didn’t see anything. No ulcers, nothing. So since the cams don’t show your intestines, the doctor prescribed me Prevacid for what he thought had to be an ulcer in my intestines. Ok that’s fine, and I’ve been happily ever after ever since. Except, I kinda sorta stopped taking my Prevacid for a few weeks, then I’d take it a few days, then not, then would, then not for a month, then would, (all for no reason, mind you…) and wham—all of a sudden I’m bleeding again, and right before the NEW YORK trip that’s right around the corner. I cried, even when I had my big weight loss number, nothing mattered, because I was bleeding inside, and that’s just the scariest thing.

Ok so then Wednesday afternoon things started looking up. The “color” was lighter. Wednesday night it was even better, and by Thursday morning the bleeding had stopped, as far as I could see toilet-wise. WHOOOHOOO!! But I still went to the doctor and we assumed it might be hemorrhoids, since it had cleared up. (I didn’t tell him I had doubled up on Prevacid trying to make up for missing so much…) After my lecture for not taking my iron pills and also for having an incredibly low blood count, I was on my way home ready to get back to normal. I’m SO pale b/c I don’t take my iron pills (they make me feel so so bad…) but I vowed to my doc AND myself I was really taking them this time, like no joke.  A few hours later, around bedtime, all hell broke loose. I was walking Sookie before time to turn in and became unbelievably nauseated. I thought I was gonna lose it in the yard. I had to bring her inside before she even finished and I barely made it to the bathroom in time. It was ridiculous, black, and red, like a hemorrhage. A few minutes later it happened again. I was more scared than ever, and my heart was racing, I knew it was nerves mostly, and I was so sad that my theory was wrong and that I definitely was not okay inside. I started packing my hospital bag, feeling like an ER trip would be in the works overnight, and laid down. I slept the night away but woke up the next morning and had another episode before work, but this time I was so dizzy I almost fainted. The room got blurry and I had to just sit flat down till I could see straight. Needless to say I skipped work, called the doc as soon as they opened, and he told me to come on down to the hospital.

He saved me a long wait and checked me out at his office and actually admitted me from there (which is right across the street) so I just got to go right into my room. My liquid diet was started, as well as a laxative prep for my colonoscopy the next (Sat) morning—a total of 32 laxative pills, how’s that for a fun filled Friday night? You can imagine where I spent the majority of the night, I was truly miserable and still passing blood. Sat morning I was taken down super early for another throat cam and butt cam (thankfully not using the same cam for both procedures!)  On the coolest note of all, and pretty much the only fun moment of the hospital stay, as they were prepping me for my procedure I heard the anesthesiologist ask for whatever mg of Propofol. Yes, the same drug my fav Michael Jackson took to sleep at night and eventually died from. I yelled “PROPOFOL? LIKE MICHAEL JACKSON?” and he laughed and said yes. I told him that was like the coolest moment ever and he laughed and that’s pretty much all I remember after that. So me and Michael Jackson now have two things in common: we both love us some Propofol and we both know the Thriller dance!

An hour or so later I was woke up (with no groggyness-no wonder he took that drug every night, that was some GOOD SHIT!) and also no memory of being probed (thank God!) and the first thing I asked the doc was if it was cancer. You know me; I always go right to the worst case scenario. He said he didn’t see any evidence of that, but had biopsied me insides, and also said he saw no polyps. What he did see, however, was a big ole ulcer in my small intestine way up there. He said it was just luck they were able to see it since they usually can’t see that on the butt cam. I guess they shoved that thing way up in there. Oh well, whatever gets results I guess. He said for some reason it had stopped bleeding, and that he would visit me later to discuss what was ahead for me in the future. Uh oh…

So, I was sent back to my room, still on a liquid diet. I was starving and agitated, not in pain, I actually felt good, I was just HONGREY. Sat night was miserable, but luckily my parents, aunt, and Brad came down to support me, even though starving, liquid-diet-Craig is no fun to be around. I joked around to Brad that this was one way to keep me from drinking (because that weekend marked a full month with no alcohol)—I had planned to celebrate the 30 day mark, but the only drinking I was gonna be doing was chicken broth. Boo hiss.

The next day I was upgraded to “ALL” liquids, which included pudding and mashed potatoes. You’ve never seen a happier person-all over pudding. I was eating pudding like it was filet mignon and that night I got Brad to sneak me in a milkshake from Chick Fila and I swear to GOD it was the best moment ever. I was hungry and depressed and that was just the best tasting thing ever and oh so needed. The doctor came by and said I was gonna have to stay Sunday night as well (WHY????) to observe as I changed over to real food again. Wha? Real food—okay I’ll stay!  He also had to break the news (with pictures!) of the ulcer and stuff. It looked like a beast. He had no idea why it had started bleeding, why it stopped, anything, but said it really needed to be taken out. As in, surgery. He went deeper and said he would have to open me up the old fashioned way and the recovery would be painful. Gulp. I explained my awesome upcoming trip to NYC to see Wrestling, Kathy Griffin, Wendy Williams, and Janet Jackson and how it meant the world to me (and the fact I had midterms that week) and he said I could take some time to think about it and as long as I wasn’t bleeding, to take it easy, monitor myself (he knows how obsessive I am about watching when things aren’t going right), and we could set up a surgery date once I got back in town from the trip, assuming I hold together till then. (We leave this Wed, 3/16 and return Sunday, 3/20). I was really down about the surgery, but tried like hell to keep a positive attitude. They also ended up giving me three bags of blood in the hospital because my blood count got down to TWENTY TWO (!!!!) which scared the staff big time I think. The doc was really worried about me, and then that got me scared too. But getting the blood was kinda fun, as you guys know I’m a big True Blood fan and luckily my nurse was too. I even did my best “Bill” voice for her after the first bag and she got a kick out of it. I was eventually discharged Monday afternoon and got some real food in me and took it easy the next day off work, too. I was feeling weak, still some light dizzy moments, and scared of the surgery but what can ya do, you know?  I also got my meds filled and have been taking them religiously, even the icky iron.

So this brings us to the second weigh-in this blog was about-this week’s. I was really interested to see how much I lost from being in the hospital. After eating a lot less leading up to the hospital visit because of nerves, being put on a liquid diet for a few days with a THIRTY TWO pill laxative clean out, I was expecting another Biggest Loser moment on the scale. I woke up bright and early Wednesday, showered, and then stepped on the scale for another surprise, this one not quite as awesome at all:

Last week’s weight (3/2/11): 199.7
3/9/11 Weight: 205.3
Loss GAIN: 5.6 pounds (!!!!!)

Excuse me??!!!??? Let me get this straight, I starved, was cleaned out beyond belief, and gained almost six pounds back? Amazing. Not to mention when I first got on the scale it was saying I had gained a little over six…but I always weigh several times to get the most accurate reading in case one is a fluke and this one came up a few times. I was floored. I’m pretty sure it was all the fluids they had me on via IV or something like that, because I def didn’t eat the calories to gain even one pound, at least science wise. A few days I was way under 1000 calories and the other ones I was barely over 1000. Yes, I counted calories in the hospital. I told you I loved MyFitnessPal!

Even though I was shocked the more I thought about it, I realize I was on an IV for four days so hopefully this will go away on this coming week’s weigh in. But really, at this point, my health is my #1 concern. Okay, okay, maybe #2…I’m really concerned about the NYC trip going well, hehe. I also thought maybe my “7 pound loss” the previous week was a random fluke where I was really having a “light day”, so I’m trying not to obsess about it too much (even though I think about it every few hours!)

As far as how I’ve been feeling this week, better each day. I haven’t seen any more bleeding, or any evidence of it, but I’m still very weak because my blood count got so low I guess. I had some dizzyness on Wed and especially Thursday, but they were quick spells that weren’t cause for alarm. Of course, I haven’t had the energy to even consider working out, and have busied myself trying to catch up on my online classes as well as my desk at work, which looked like a bomb had went off when I returned on Wednesday. Diet wise, I’ve not stopped counting calories at all, but I have gone over my limit a few days trying to refuel my tank. I think I was almost starving myself to lose weight (so stupid) and I know that didn’t help my problems inside and might have even helped cause them. So I’ve been eating more than I was the last month, but not really bad foods or snacks. I’m basically just trying to hold steady until my body is feeling back to where it was before all this happened. We’ll see how that goes on this week’s weigh-in, and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little worried that not exercising and eating more will lead to another gain, or no loss, but right now there are more important things going on.

It’s now Saturday when I’m writing this entry, and we leave for NYC in FOUR DAYS!!! I’m so excited. We got our confirmation to be in the audience for the Wendy Williams Show (How you doooooinn??) and then THE VIEW called yesterday (we sent in several requests to different shows in case they were all full…) but we decided not to go, the guest was someone boring and I’m not a fan of the show anyway. But, it was still cool to have them call us. How random: The View calling a couple of nobodys in Mississippi! Can’t wait to see Wendy, though! The episode will air on Monday, March 21st so set your DVR’s! 🙂

Longest blog ever. Sorry yall. I tried to make it interesting. Not sure when I’ll post this week, since we leave Wed and that’s my usual weigh-in day. I might weigh on Tuesday to get it out of the way or something. We’ll see. If you have time, include me in your prayers that my ulcer will hold strong for a while. I want to try and wait to have my surgery until May when classes are over so that will be one less stressor to deal with. He did kind of warn me that if I started bleeding again he’d have to go ahead and do it, and for some reason if I have the surgery while it’s actively bleeding, there’s a bigger risk of me having to have a colostomy bag. What the what? That scared me!  I’ll definitely keep everyone posted on what happens, though. I’m going to try and not even start worrying about the upcoming surgery until it gets closer because there’s really nothing I can do about it, and I feel worrying will just upset my body even more. Until then, thanks for reading all about my drama and I hope everyone has a terrific weekend!

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Hey yall!

So I *think* I mentioned that I was going to be checking and updating my measurements every two weeks, on Sundays. Two weeks ago I measured for the first time and today is update time!

I lost an inch in my chest and thighs, as long as I’m measuring correctly, lol.  I am still getting used to taking measurements–I feel like I might measure in a different place one time than another, therefore making the results iffy. But the one I am focused on is my stomach/waist area, and it seems I lost 2 inches there. I know there’s probably a different place to measure your waist than your stomach, and I’ve ever googled it, but I’m still foggy on this. How do yall measure this area? Two different measurements or one?  It and my thighs are my areas that need to shrink the most.

To make my measurements more noticeable, I am also doing a method involving clothes that didn’t quite fit…or didn’t fit at all. As I said in an earlier post I put all my jeans that would be close to buttoning after some work in one box and jeans that were far away in another box.  I’m not close to opening those boxes, but two weeks ago I did have two pairs of jeans (and one shirt) that WOULD button, but I wouldn’t be comfortable wearing them at all, much less in public, and I pretty much couldn’t breathe in them.  Today, both jeans AND the shirt buttoned! They were still quite snug, but I could totally see myself going out in them and being okay (or just a little uncomfortable, hehe).  Regardless, I put them back on the top shelf and will check and see how they feel in two more weeks. Perhaps they can graduate to “hanger” status, aka “ready to wear.”   We’ll see!

I’m pleased with this update and like I said, there will probably be lots of weeks where I count on this way of measuring to see progress as the ratio of “pounds” I have to lose doesn’t seem to correspond with just how far away my old clothes are from fitting. Here’s hoping that both numbers go down in the coming weeks/months.  I want my suitcase for New York to have a variety of looks available!  🙂

Hey everyone!

Well, after last week’s huge number, I felt dread for this week’s weigh-in. Not because I have been cheating or not exercising or anything like that, because I’ve busted my tail and done without pretty much everything, but more because I felt like I was gonna have an infamous “week two” weigh in and that scared me. As much as I know the scale is “just a number” it’s still the big event of the week to gauge how you’re doing when you’re attempting to lose weight. So let’s see how I did:

Last week’s weight (2/16/11): 208.3

2/23/11 Weight: 206.8
Loss: 1.5 pounds

Yes, a loss is a loss indeed. I guess I’m spoiled because I expected more only because it was a week filled with so many victories. I again did not drink on the weekend–AT ALL–huge for me! And at the birthday party not only was I the DD (not fun), but I also avoided the fancy expensive cake they had and only ate some chicken. I was way, way, way under my calories everyday. I exercised Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, with especially hard workouts on Sat and Sun plus a lot of working in the apartment cleaning and organizing. I counted all my food and honestly did without a lot of things I wanted to indulge in. I guess the only issue was Girl Scout Cookies, which we got on Saturday. I forgot we had ordered them, honestly. And instead of taking them to work, I ate some of them–but, they were all factored into my daily calories so I don’t feel any guilt about that at all. I guess I’m saying all this to make myself feel better because I was hoping for a 3 or 4 pound loss, but after almost ten pounds last week, that probably wasn’t possible. No matter what the scale says, I’m happy because I’m progressing, I can tell my clothes are getting a little looser (or maybe just not as tight, hehe), and I’m not hating working out. OH–another victory: I managed to up my time I can last on the elliptical machine from 3 minutes to TWENTY minutes on Sunday! Granted, I wasn’t going crazy fast, but still–20 nonstop minutes. Win! My total loss for two weeks is 11.2 and that is way impressive so I’m happy. I’m also still loving myfitnesspal and strongly urge you to check it out if you haven’t already. It’s a great tool for support and an awesome way to stay accountable for your food. My user id is craigversion2 and I would love to be your friend on there as well!

I also wanted to touch on something and see if you guys agree. A big part of my weight loss attempt is fitting back into my old clothes. I’ve often said that my weight gain number-wise didn’t seem to match the degree to how I can’t fit into my old pants and shirts. If I had had to guess how much weight I had gained going only by how my clothes wouldn’t fit, I would have said a lot higher number. Does it make sense in me saying that I’m going to probably have a lot of weeks with low weight loss numbers and maybe have to focus more on measurements? I have a little over ten pounds to go till I get back around my “normal” weight of 195 (which is still high, I’m just saying that’s the weight I was for so long and when I was in those clothes…I want to go lower than 195…) And yet I still have a long way to go to fit into them. So I’m trying to make myself realize while the scale might say a low loss, it’s gonna be a slower journey inches-wise till I’m back in all those clothes. I took my measurements Sunday before last and decided I would take them every other Sunday: this Sunday is my first check in to see how they’ve changed. I’m excited for that! Patience is not my thing, and I need to work on that. I didn’t gain this weight/inches in a few weeks, so it’s not gonna leave in a few weeks, either.

Alright I’m gonna wrap this up. The weekend is still a bit away from starting but I probably won’t post before then, so I hope you all have a good one. My plan is much like it’s been the last few weekends: to not drink any alcohol, exercise, and stay under my calories. I’m also gonna try to go longer than 25 minutes on the elliptical, just because.

Oh yeah: THREE WEEKS till my New York City trip!!!!!!  Excited Am I! 🙂

Today was a good exercise day, for me, who hates to exercise (but loves the post workout feeling). 

I’m trying so hard to not do the mistakes I did last year. I didn’t even realize they were mistakes until I look at how much differently I view exercise this time around compared to last time. Last year I set lots of goals. Do 500 miles of walking/jogging in a year, so many a month, jog/run at a certain time, etc. It put a lot of pressure on me and made me feel like a failure when I didn’t reach the goals and really made me dread the exercise even more.

This time, so far at least, I’m doing things a little different. I’m still challenging myself during workouts, but I’ve eliminated the ridiculous goals like “500 miles in a year”, “run a mile by March”, etc. When I got about a third of the way through the year last year, and realized I was sooo far off track to get to that 500 miles number, I felt like giving up and pretty much did.

Today I did sixty minutes of cardio and actually had fun (as much fun as you can have in the gym–let’s not go too far here…) I started off with 15 mins on the treadmill, then 15 on the elliptical, 15 on the bike, and 15 more on the treadmill. I took some breaks in between to catch my breath, but I was pretty much just doing what I felt like doing at the time, with no pressure or “goal” to reach. With that said, I still do have goals. For example, the elliptical is my new arch nemesis/friend. I have always had difficulty with the machine and was able to last 5 minutes on it on Thursday.  Today, my goal was to go a little slower and see if I could last 8 or 10 minutes. I hit the 10 min mark and felt tired, but wasn’t dying or anything, so I pushed on to the 15 min mark. It was tough, but again I was doing what I felt like doing at the time and it worked for me. Before I knew it, I had racked up an hour of gym time, which has to be some sort of a record for me. I felt proud! 🙂

I’m gonna see how long I can ride this style of working out and hope I see better results. Tomorrow I might do step aerobics or zumba or one of the Sweatin’ to the Oldies DVD’s. I might even do a Wii/PS3 workout. Who knows? Whatever I feel like as long as I’m moving. I think the biggest lesson is it’s easier for me to do this and compete against myself than to try to go on sites like dailymile, myfitnesspal, etc and see people running tons of miles while I can’t.  I wish I could, but not at that level, and I’m pretty far from being there and that’s okay!

Speaking of myfitnesspal, it’s my new obsession. I love the site. I have the iPhone app and it’s so useful to count calories and exercise. The community is great for support and almost has a facebook feel as far as posting workouts and getting feedback.  My username is craigversion2 so if you use it, add me as a friend–and if you don’t use it, check it out. Then add me, lol.  I found it thanks to Tyler at 344pounds.com and have loved it once I got used to how to use it (not that it was hard to use…)

Hope everyone has a great weekend. I have a bday party to go to tonight so there’s tons of room for failure. My goal is to not drink at all (yes, I said it…) and not blow the diet to hell on party food. Luckily, with the workout done for the day, I have that to think of…so when I think about eating bad food I just think of how hard it was to get that sixty minutes in–why undo that?  Exactly.

Peace out!

What a week this was for me. I had great sacrifices, a lot of hard work, and amazing results. Before I start, let me just say that for me this was pretty much a “week one” weigh in. Even though I rebooted in January and did pretty good for a few weeks, the end of January was pretty much a disaster of food and no exercise, so I think my body treated this as one of those great weigh-ins you get on the first week of a new diet/exercise plan. With that said, I still gave up a lot of my treats and am very proud of my results!!

Last week’s weight (2/9/11): 218
2/16/11 Weight: 208.3
Loss: 9.7 pounds!!

YES. NINE POINT SEVEN POUNDS. When the Wii Fit told me that, I don’t think I’ve ever been happier. Ever. And I’m normally a pretty damn happy person! I really worked hard this week and think I deserve that good number. But, just to be sure, I weighed again and it said the same number. Whew!

As far as my big “sacrifices”, of course food intake was a lot lower. I mean, a lot. I was eating less calories than ever before, and counting every single bite I took in. I am not proud with how big a deficit I was getting because I don’t think it’s healthy in the long term. I have heard of the “starvation mode” concept if you eat too few calories, but I’m not exactly sure how that works. As far as exercise, I did workouts Wed, Fri, and SATURDAY!! (wow!) Then worked on a lot of cleaning/organizing Sunday, and walked 2 miles Monday at lunch. I took Tuesday off I was completely drained and then last night was the dreaded last minute homework night for online classes. Yuck. These could be excuses, but on the days I knew I wasn’t gonna work out, I made sure to keep a very, very close eye on my calories.

The big victory of the week was my “no alcohol this weekend!” pledge. Which, I’ve done so many times, and failed at so many times. This weekend, however, I did it. It was NOT easy. Friday night, especially. It was like my best friend had died or something. I just felt like it was the weekend, I should be drinking, but I didn’t. An amazing thing happened Saturday morning: I woke up without my usual Saturday hangover. I got up and felt great. I got a GREAT workout in, early early, and had a productive day. After this success, it made not drinking Saturday night a lot easier, and also led to a productive, hangover free Sunday as well. I learned I don’t have to drink every weekend, and obviously that helped my loss on the scale this week. For the record, I attribute most of my weight gain issues to alcohol and snacks, so this is big for me.

Now, my second victory: Valentine’s Day. I can’t begin to tell you how many treats people brought to work. Fresh donuts, cookies, cakes, mini candy bars, cupcakes, everything. I managed to avoid them all day, and then I got home and my mom had mailed me a CAKE for V-day, and I avoided it for like 3 days. I had a tiny square last night, and it was yummy, but not worth wrecking my week of victories over. I actually stood and watched my coworkers pig out on their cupcakes and yes, I did want one, but I just wanted to see if I could avoid them, and I did. I felt amazing for the self control. THEN, the next day, in a meeting we had more fresh donuts. I intentionally sat right in front of the box for the 45 min meeting just so I could smell them and see if I could resist them. I was the only person not to have a donut. I love it! Did I want one? HELL YES. I told one of my gals at work that I’d rather have a donut than my next breath. Joking, of course, (for the most part), but I don’t want anyone to think I’m not craving the foods they are loving. They’re my favorites too!

I felt like I had lost weight and in the end, I did. So far, this week is going great as well. I am planning on another weekend of victories and hopefully will have another good loss next week, but at the same time I’m not going to get discouraged if the number is low, because I had a hyoooge one this week. (That’s what she said!)

Oh: one more thing. I’m probably gonna do a separate post about this next week, but I stole an idea from Mary at www.amerrylife.com from a post she did about stacks of clothes that go with her through all her moves around the world that she never is able to fit into, but always wants to. I spent all day Sunday trying on pants (I had two big boxes of them) and put them into 3 piles. One would button but were too uncomfortable to wear. Two would not button, but should be able to in a reasonable amount of dieting/exercise time. Three wouldn’t button, and it’s gonna take a LOT of work to get back into. The saddest part is that Pile 3, the long shot pile, used to fit back in the day. (Pouty face). The reason I did this is because judging by my history of weight loss and what my “normal” weight was when I was in those clothes, I don’t have a lot of weight to lose according to the scale, but I have a lot more inches to lose, apparently. Hopefully this will give me goals to shoot for when the scale starts to stop moving. We shall see. Oh, I also took my measurements on Sunday and plan to take them every two weeks and see if I’m seeing changes there as well. I hate taking measurements. Not only are the results horrifying, but I always feel like I’m not measuring right, or fear I’ll measure the wrong area next time and think I lost inches when I really didn’t. Weird, huh?

Ok sorry for the long post, I just had to share my good news and bask in the glory of my victories of the week. I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend!

Happy weekend everyone!

Things are still going great here.  Isn’t that always the story of your first week “back” and fired up, though? 🙂

So you know how I was talking about doing different exercises besides walking/jogging so I wouldn’t be so bored and uninterested in doing them? Yesterday I was putting clothes in the dryer and saw my “Step” that I used for Step Aerobics back in the day, standing beside the dryer (dust covered, of course) and said “Hmmmm…”  Then I thought about how on Biggest Loser they did that challenge to get on the show where they had to do 500 steps and the first one that completed, won.  So I thought that sounded like a fun workout.  For record keeping sake, I timed myself and did it this morning to start my Saturday off riiiiiight!

I was able to complete the “500 Steps” challenge on my step-up thingie in a little over 18 minutes. Not too shabby! I think I could have gone faster, but this is a starting point, right?  There was a few moments I got super winded (because I added arm movements) so that might have slowed me down some. I was pleased! And def felt the burn.  Later I googled and saw that BL also did a 1000 steps challenge. Maybe in a few weeks I’ll try that, lol.  To get some extra time in, I went ahead and did 7 more minutes of steps, alternating pace and movement to get in an even 25 minutes of step-time. I didn’t count the # of steps in that time period though, because that was definitely the most annoying part of the challenge. I probably lost count a few times so I probably did a little over 500 in the 18 mins 🙂
Oh, I then jogged around the apartment like an idiot for 5 mins to get an even 30 min workout in. I have no idea how far that is, how fast I was going, etc, I just know my heartrate was up and I was jamming to Ke$ha on my Ipod and having fun, it def didn’t feel as sucky as the treadmill trap.   Most of all, I was exercising on a SATURDAY! For me that’s unheard of.

So the weekend is about half over and I survived my first night of not drinking. That is definitely my biggest sacrifice of all. I know that sounds bad, but some of you while on “diets” dream of ice cream, cakes, brownies, or fried chicken…and while I do love ALL of those things, I can do without them just fine most days: I just like to have my weekend drinking time. Friday and Saturday nights around here are for drinking with friends, playing the Wii (MJ game is AWESOME!!!) and karaoke, but for a while I’m having to stop that for the betterment of the cause.  Last night was kinda sad, it was like I had lost my best friend just sitting around on a Friday night, but I got through it. And today I don’t have a hangover like most Saturdays so that’s really good. I know I sound like an alcoholic, and maybe I have some of that in me, but I just like to drink on the weekends and have fun. It shouldn’t be an every weekend thing, though, and I’m making that change. Call it my “Ah-ha” moment 🙂

The weather here is supposed to FINALLY be great tomorrow (sunny and in the 60’s) so I’m planning to venture outdoors, enjoy the sun, and do some walking and maybe a little bit of jogging if I feel frisky. No pressure though 🙂    Last night I did a Richard Simmons DVD (don’t hate, he’s ridiculous but I find him funny and I could def feel my heart PUMPING during it!) for a Friday night workout session. I’m on a roll!  That makes me think of O’Charley’s rolls….mmmmm.  Wait, no no no!

Alright that’s enough of me babbling. Hope yall have a great weekend!  And I REALLY hope people are still reading my blog, I did kind of abandon it for a while.  Oops!

Hey everyone!

I was lucky enough to get another “snow day” today and thought I’d take the free time to do an update post. I posted last month about being back and such. I did pretty good for the first two weeks, I lost around 4 pounds, and then didn’t weigh for two more weeks. And you know what not weighing means: you’re eating bad and not exercising usually. I got back on track on counting calories again earlier in the week and have been exercising, so overall–all is going well.  The train has not derailed! 

Weight 2/9/11: 218

So that’s a “loss” of 0.7 since my last post, although like I said I had lost around 4 pounds, but gained most back, as the yo-yo trend goes. What can I say, I like to eat and can ALWAYS find an excuse not to exercise if I think long enough (aka a few seconds!)  🙂

I’m excited about next week’s number. I’m working a lot harder this week and actually “going without” some foods and such.  We are going to NEW YORK CITY (!!!!!!!!!!) for Spring Break in March so I’m trying to get some weight off before then. I realize that’s next month so it’s not like I can magically be smaller, but I look at it this way: If I have a fantastic month of weight loss, that’s a great kickstart to the overall lifestyle change, so win/win. 

Oh yeah, about NYC….we are going to see Janet Jackson at Radio City Music Hall as well as my favorite, WWE Wrestling at (wait for it…) Madison Square Garden!!!  And hoping for free tickets to see Wendy Williams (HOWYOUDUHHHHIIINN!?!!!) if she’s taping that day. Plus the sight seeing. I’m super excited, I just wish all the blizzards would let up so I could stop worrying about what might go wrong to cancel the trip!

Classes are going well this semester so far. Fitting in homework time sucks, especially since I loathe reading History, but I’m getting it done. Everything else is going good too.  Just this damn non-diet. I hate it, but it has to be, I guess.

My first month of New Year’s Resolutions work went well. I got some of my organizing done but as usual, I fell short on getting all my “to do” list done.  Gonna work on it some more in February!

How is everyone else doing? Have you gotten much snow in your area? A lot of you are my friends on Facebook and I have enjoyed seeing your snow pics!

Okay I have a roast in the crock pot and I think it’s time for Zumba or something. Just because it’s cold as all hell and icy outside, I won’t use that as an excuse not to exercise today 🙂
Btw, speaking of exercise, can I just say how much less I dread it now that I’m doing like Zumba, workout DVD’s, PS/Wii exercise games, etc than feeling like I have to “run” to lose weight?  We’ll see how the results go, but if I don’t lose weight I guess I’ll have to go back to jogging. But, I don’t see the difference because I feel like I workout a lot harder on those dance/etc dvd’s than the “jogging” I was failing at 🙂

See you next week for another update. I promise!

Hello all and a happy belated New Year!

I’ve been trying to write this post for over a week but the real job kept getting in the way of my writing time.  THE NERVE!  Anyway, the more time passed by, the less my big return to blogging seemed to mean. I remember it was only a few months ago that I “returned” and that lasted like two weeks before I was back to my old bad habits of bad foods and no exercise.  And with that I gained about ten pounds or so.

I’m sure it’s no shock that with the New Year, my #1 resolution was diet/exercise. I hate the word “diet”, and I don’t consider myself to be on a diet now, but I am back to exercising and counting calories. I’m attempting to do light breakfasts and lunches, way light snacks, and then a normal dinner, since I usually cook stuff that’s hard to measure calories of in the entire dish.  I actually started last week, and I weighed in this morning unofficially, and it said I was down 3 pounds. That made me happy. BUT, I do not want Monday to be my weigh-in day because Monday’s are bad enough without having to have your weight get you down even more so I’m thinking Wed or Thursday. I realize this could mean on Thursday I could have not lost 3 pounds, but that’s okay–there’s no rush.

For the purposes of record keeping, my New Year’s “start weight” (hate that term, but it is what it is…) was 218.7.   I’m not happy about that number, but what can ya do? Thanks Christmas goodies and Thanksgiving and alcohol and snacks galore and no exercise! Remember when I was in “onederland?” That was so awesome, but seems like ages ago now. It feels SO good to be back. I’m fine with losing slowly and steadily, as long as I move in the downward direction!

Speaking of, I wanted to say a few things I’ve learned over the last few months. I am never going to be “skinny.”  It’s just not gonna happen. I’m not built like that, I’ll always be a little nugget, and that’s fine. Can I please get back into my 36″ pants tho? I felt SHARP back then! My goal in diet and exercise, etc is to get back into my older clothes and feel healthier and all that jazz. I’m not a vain person, but I hate when my “fat pants” are close to not buttoning and that’s the situation we’re in right now. My self esteem is so low and when it’s low I tend to stay at home all the time and it’s a vicious circle because then I’m lazy and eat more.

I also wanted to post about my New Year’s Resolutions!!  This year I did all my normal ones: calorie counting, exercise, less alcohol, more writing, being more organized, etc. But I stole from Jeremy at StellarPath.net when he posted his resolutions he did a January goal to make a big task not seem so impossible. I’ve done the same thing. I’m not going to bore you with the list, but I will be doing updates on how I’m coming along each month.  Also, instead of having 14,948 resolutions, I made a “to do” list full of stuff I’ve been meaning to get done but haven’t (especially since moving and in writing projects, etc) and I even did some January goals on the bigger ones in that section, too.  Some of my “to do” tasks are as silly as organizing my out of control Itunes library to walking 25 miles this month.  So random, just like me!

One last thing: exercise. I’ve tried to be a runner and maybe someday I will be one (doubt it) but every time I try it, I end up hating it. Like, hate is an understatement. So I’ve started back walking in an attempt to get more weight off as well as to build up to jogging to see how that goes. But I’ve also discovered the exercise that I actually enjoy is dancing (in the aerobics way). I love Zumba. I love the Michael Jackson Wii game and played it for an hour or so almost every night this week. It’s the best game I’ve ever played! And I’ve noticed my heartrate/breathing is much more elevated while doing these exercises than while walking, so surely that has to be a good thing, right? I’m just trying to find an exercise I don’t fixate on and dread about and this is one I find fun. Plus, I have a ton of DVD’s for this activity!

I guess that’s about it. So I’m back!!!  Again, I’m not on a “diet” but I’m back to living more healthy and watching what I eat.  We’re currently snowed in with about six-eight inches of snow right now. Did I make snow cream? Yes. I ate a little and it was tasty. Will I make some chocolate chip cookies tonight? Perhaps, but I won’t go crazy on them. I’m going to live life and have fun, but try to do so in a healthier way with more activity and lose pounds along the way. I’m not setting a ridiculous goal (for me) of “walking/running 500 miles” for 2011 like I did in 2010, because that’s just not me. That was my bad, but maybe I learned something from it! I think when I set goals that high, for me, I get frustrated and eventually give up. Then I feel guilty and that leads to me not posting, and I hate that because I love the blogging community on here. I’ve met some really cool, supportive, fun people and am so glad I’ve been able to keep up with yall via Facebook! (Shout out!!!!!) 

I hope 2011 is a wonderful year for all of you, myself included, and that at the end of the year we can say we lived it, had fun, and accomplished most of what we set out to do at the start.  

 Let’s do this!

Progress Update: September 16, 2010

Start Weight: (9/1/09): 234.8
Last week’s weight: 209.2
This week’s weight: 205.9
Weekly Loss: 3.3lbs
Total Loss: 28.9lbs

Whooo hoooo!!! After a not so good weekend and a much improved week, I lost a little over 3 pounds! I’m very happy with this number, especially considering the missteps I had. I’ve been back into calorie counting, but as usual dinners are hard to count because I make a big serving and then use it for leftovers for a few days. So I try to count very exact during breakfast, lunch, and snacks to give myself a little wiggle room at dinner. I’ve done EXCELLENT at snacking, since I got rid of all the trashy foods! I’m trying so hard to get back to onederland. It was a nice place to be. In looking back at old posts, it looks like the lowest number I reached was 196.7. So first goal is to be under 200, second goal is to reach that number again, and third goal is to go even lower!!

I just noticed that I missed the one year anniversary of my blog. I was probably too busy eating junk, watching TV, doing homework, etc to remember. I do remember thinking somewhere in late August that it had been a year since all this had started, but it was while driving or something. Of course, it’s kinda hard to do a big celebratory post about an anniversary of a weight loss blog while you’re gaining weight and feeling bad about yourself. So now that I’m back, WHOOO!!!!! Happy one year anniversary! Hehe.

I exercised on Monday and Tuesday. Monday was walking 2 miles and my first experience with the elliptical machine (ouch!)….Tuesday me and my coworkers did ZUMBA! It was my first time to do zumba and I really enjoyed it, even though I didn’t have the moves down just right. It was my first time after all! I did want to mention something about Monday’s walk: I could definitely tell I had taken a five month break. If you can remember way back to April, I was on like week 4 of C25K, even though it was a struggle, and running some intervals. This time, after such a long break, I was extremely tired and winded just by walking at a 3.7-3.8 pace. So I have a new project to work on, getting my skillz back up to par!

I wanna set some goals for this weekend, because this is always the time I struggle. Always has been, always will be. Here’s what I hope to do:

–Drink alcohol one night only.
–Push water. I do great during the week on water, but on weekends it’s all diet soda!
–Exercise one day this weekend
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–Work on homework at some point both days in the weekend. I’m a procrastinator and it all piles up on Wednesday nights when it’s due!
–Organize more stuff in my room. Now that it’s clean, I can work on the individual corners and boxes that need to be unpacked/sorted/thrown away.

Maybe if I keep myself busy I won’t be tempted to eat/drink bad things! Oh, the movie DEVIL comes out this weekend so I might be tempted by the popcorn beast Friday afternoon!!!

It’s great to be back and great to be involved with this wonderful blogging community. Keep up the great work everybody!!

Hey errrybody!

Hope yall had a very wonderful weekend. I did, although I didn’t reach all my goals. I had planned on cleaning my room/organizing some stuff, drinking less, and one workout. Unfortunately, I only cleaned/organized out of that list. My room looks SO good now though. I still have stuff to unpack, but it’s coming together! I drank less as well, but I’m trying to get that down to NO drinking.

I just wanted to do a quick post. I planned on doing a progress post on Thursday, but that was a big ole fail. I did weigh, and I had lost 0.9 pound. It’s a loss, so that’s good, but I hadn’t been able to exercise because of my back problem. I also was eating pretty bad (not awful, but bad)…so my first week “back” wasn’t as great as I had hoped. That 0.9 was probably a water fluctuation…but it wasn’t a gain! Luckily, all the bad snacks are officially out of the apartment and I’ve been doing better. I feel like I’m back on track. Speaking of backs, mine is better so I’m hoping to do a good walk after work today. I still have some tightness on my lower left side, which worries me that it’ll go haywire again, but for now all is well.

I’m back to counting calories again as of today. I actually ate a real breakfast and consumed around 260 cals. I enjoy counting calories for the most part, I just hate when you cook up a big dish of something (say chili or spaghetti) so therefore you totals aren’t exactly accurate. I guess it’s the OCD in me. Even when I fell off the wagon I tried to semi count calories, even if on an estimate, on most days…so thankfully this isn’t a big deal to start back doing.

I’m thinking of going to Fitbloggin 2011!! Keep in mind, I have no idea what all goes on, when it is, where it is, etc but there’s several people I would love to meet and it would be fun to have a trip lined up, especially one that would benefit my health and diet/exercise scenario I’ve got going on right now. I can’t wait to do some more research and maybe (gasp) book a room or something!

I guess that’s about it! I will be back on Thursday with this week’s status update (number wise) unless something newsworthy happens which, with my life, is pretty much a safe bet will not happen 🙂

Be good to yourself…and each other.  🙂

-C