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Week 34 Results:
Start (9/1/09): 234.8 

Week 31 (4/8/10) 197.1 (-1.1)
Week 32 (4/15/10) 196.7 (-0.4)
Week 33 (4/22/10) 198.7 (+2.0)
Week 34 (4/29/10) 198.9 (+0.2)

Total Loss: 35.9 pounds in 34 weeks

Comments: Eh, nothing really to say about the weight. I don’t really consider that a gain, it’s so insignificant. I am VERY bothered by being so close to leaving “Onederland”…it’s a scary place to be that really plays with your mind and emotions.  However, I’m actually quite happy with this week’s number, because I was expecting a huge gain. Why? Because this past weekend was a 3-day weekend~! and I acted like Kirstie Alley meets Courtney Love with all the food and vodka I put into my body.

I really want an effing pizza.

I’m sorta kidding, but not really. I basically flipped off the ole lifestyle change for a few days. Of course I regretted it afterwards. Vodka, Pizza Hut, and all sorts of other bad choices. AND THEN, my planned exercise for the weekend didn’t happen–at all. So Fri, Sat, Sun, AND Monday: NO exercise. Granted, there were LOTS of storms (including four tornado warnings Saturday!!!) but still…the treadmill was right there. But when you feed your body pizza and alcohol, the end result is feeling like crap the next day and the last thing you want to do is exercise when you feel that bad. That brings me to my next topic…my lost exercise mojo.

I've lost my moooooojooooooo!

Last Thursday evening, I hit another goal when I reached 150 miles for 2010. I was so proud!! I still consider myself a walker, that jogs when I can…but still–150 miles was a big damn deal for me.  My overall goal for the year is 500, but I’m looking at it in smaller chunks so it doesn’t seem so overwhelming. My next goal is 250. Anyway, how did I follow up my self esteem boosting accomplishment? By not exercising for four days. When I got back on the treadmill Tuesday something was…wrong. I couldn’t breathe right, my shins and ankles hurt, and this was only like 8 minutes into the workout. It was as if I had been off for four weeks, not four days. I struggled and panted and got through 2 miles. Last night was more of the same, but I got 2 more miles in. All the progress I had made with C25K seems to have faded away as now I struggle just jogging 3 minutes. Then I see all my other blogging buddies making such huge improvements on their run times, pacing, etc and I feel even more inadequate, because I’ve still not learned to stop comparing myself to others. Also, for the past few days, when I take a deep breath, I have a pain in my upper left part of my chest.  Weird.   Remind me to never take more than a day off again, okay?  Really. I’m still working to find my cardio mojo, and hopefully in a few days or a week I’ll be back to normal. If anyone knows where I left it, let me know. It was last seen on Thursday, April 22nd around 6:30pm!

Some more stuff going on:

The Coca Cola 10K is scheduled for this Saturday. I’m nervous as hell about it. Not that I have ANY intentions of “running it” but I just want to finish it.  6 miles is a lot to me. Like, how most of you think of a half marathon, that’s how I think of a 10k. I’m not even sure if I’ll be able to participate because the weather is looking horrendous for the weekend. Friday through Sunday it’s supposed to be another round of strong storms. We have time to register, I just hate to do it and not be able to participate due to weather. As much as I complain and hate exercise, I actually DO want to do the 10K because I’ve talked about it for a while and I think it’d be cool to say I did one. But in the rain? I dunno about that, Willis. My goal is to finish in 1hr 32 mins, and my secret inner goal is 1hr 30 mins…but I’ll take leaving in my own car with a smile with a worse time over leaving in an ambulance around the 4 mile marker.

–I’ve FINALLY figured out this Google Reader thing. It’s AWESOME! If you’re one of the blogs that I rarely (or never) comment on, it’s probably because I never knew when you posted because if it didn’t have an email link, I didn’t get a notification. But now they are all there in one place to read! Yay. I’m still adding subscriptions so hopefully in a day or two I’ll have everyone on there. I’m very happy about this, because there’s some great people and blogs that I follow that will slip my mind simply because I don’t remember to check their sites everyday.

Weekend Warriors #3:
Brandon is hosting another Weekend Warriors Challenge this weekend. Last month I failed and had to repeat it the next weekend, but that will NOT happen this time.  Here are my goals for the weekend:
–Complete the Coca Cola 10K race.  My goal is to finish it, period, but if I can finish in 1hour 32 mins I will be proud of myself. Anything lower than that is simply bonus points.
–Drink 80oz of water Saturday and Sunday
–Stay around 2000 calories Saturday and Sunday
–No alcohol all weekend. NONE! Ya hear me, Kirstie/Courtney?

And in a non-health goal, I also plan on cleaning my bedroom. It’s become super cluttered with boxes and books and clothes so I want to do some organizing and cleaning in there. It’s much needed.

If you think your diet derails on the weekends, please click the link above and join us! It really is fun and motivating to know people all over the world are working hard to stay on track with you over the weekend while you’re sitting there missing your favorite food or drink. You don’t feel as alone…at least I don’t!

Good luck to all my fellow warriors out there. Oh, and for all your horror movie fans out there, don’t forget the new Nightmare on Elm Street movie opens this weekend! I hope it’s good. We’re going to see it on Friday night I believe.  Thanks for reading!


Week 33 Results:
Start (9/1/09): 234.8 

Week 28 (3/18/10) 201.1 (-2.2)
Week 29 (3/25/10) 198.6 (-2.5)
Week 30 (4/1/10) 198.2 (-0.4)
Week 31 (4/8/10) 197.1 (-1.1)
Week 32 (4/15/10) 196.7 (-0.4)
Week 33 (4/22/10) 198.7 (+2.0)

Total Loss: 36.1 pounds in 33 weeks

Comments: Ummm, what? 2 pounds gained. Yep, what can you do? Maybe it’s water weight. Maybe I didn’t do as well on my calories. Maybe I shouldn’t have drank Sat night even tho I budgeted it into my calories. But it’s done. I don’t see how this is possible with the 5K on Saturday plus exercising most other days as well…but like Jess said, the scale doesn’t define me.  But, at the same time, seeing a gain after a week of hard work is pretty depressing.

Oh well, time to start another week. Maybe next week will have better results. 

By the way, I decided that I *am* doing the 10K next Saturday (May 1st) as long as the weather is good. The weather will be the only factor that cancels it. So next week (Tue or Wed) I should have a better idea for sure, but right now I’m in. So if I gained 2 pounds after doing a 5k, will I gain 4 pounds after doing a 10K?  :/

I’m teasing….have a great weekend everyone!


As I’ve mentioned in previous posts for the past few weeks, Saturday was my first ever 5K “race.”  I put it in quotes because I didn’t really feel like I was a runner or racer so it just sounded silly to think of me competing against anyone.

And then Saturday happened.

I walked/ran the 5K in 43:18. I finished in 34th place overall, and 4th in my age group. Before you start throwing confetti on me and applauding, it’s not like there were hundreds of people running or anything. But still, I am *damn* proud of myself!!  My goals were to jog as much as possible, not finish last, and finish under 45 minutes. When I saw that 43 minutes beside my name I was like YAY!!!!  I have been averaging 15 minute miles on the treadmill (actually a little better here lately with the C25K program going on…) but I had heard how outside running was tougher. And, it was…but I did what I could. And I surprised myself with how many jogging spurts I was able to do! And that stuff about me not being a runner or a racer…well, while I still don’t think I’m up to the level of most people, I can tell you that the spark has been lit, if only slightly, by this race. It was something about being out there with all those people that made me push myself to go faster, run longer…and it felt good. Note: Not the “runner’s high” or anything (I still think that is not possible for me!) but it was something that made me competetive and able to do better.

Brad, Amy, and Me before the race

I did the race with my friends Brad and Amy. I knew a few other people there from Facebook and such. As we all lined up, there was a girl with us that said she walked/jogged and it seemed she was on our level as far as ability. When we started, we all started off jogging. Then we walked for a while. The girl from the starting point passed us when my shoe came untied (UGH!) and she was ahead of us for the majority of the race. I say majority b/c Brad kept saying his only goal was to beat that girl. I thought it was funny, especially because she was so nice. But I guess everyone needs a goal 🙂

Early on...feelin' proud!

The girl was ahead of us for a long while. She’d go out of sight for a while when we turned down roads, but then I’d see her ponytail again. We eventually started gaining ground on her and passed her (!!!!) in a jogging spell while she was on a walk. Yeah, we so planned it…waiting for the victim to be weak, lol. We were able to stay ahead of her the rest of the way and beat her! Yeeeeah! Somewhere along the race, that became my goal as well. hehe. I wonder if she noticed me keep glancing back at her as if I was running from a murderer? I sure hope not.

Around the halfway point...why am I taking pictures???

There was a HELLACIOUS hill around the 2 mile mark called “Cemetary Hill” (bc it’s beside a cemetary, of course…) and when I saw it I was like whaaaaaaaaaaat? We had been warned by the guy on the mic at the beginning about this hill, but when I saw it, after all the jogging, it seriously looked like Mt. Everest. We fast walked it tho…WHOO!!!  When I saw the finish line from a distance, I wanted to run the rest of the race to the end. And I did, except for about a 15 second walk break when I was just out of breath completely. But I finished it running…with a smile. A sweaty, red faced smile…and it was one of the proudest moments of my life!!!!


Moments after crossing the finish line!!

OMGBECKY…I was on cloud nine there. And that mood lasted all day and night, too! I would like to thank Beyonce, The Black Eyed Peas, Lady Gaga, and several others for helping me finish. Seriously, I couldn’t have done this without my Ipod I don’t think. 43:18!!!  For my lazy self, that’s pretty good…I think?

Well, with one little exception. They informed us they’d be giving out medals after everyone had finished. I looked over and saw a shitload of medals on the table and thought, WHOOOOOHOOOO!!   Cut to me, already planning my new Facebook picture: me in my 5K shirt with my medal. Not because I won, I just assumed since they had 794,490 medals that all participants would get one, right?


Only the winners would…uh oh. So they started reading results. In my age group, random guys won 1st and 2nd place…and then, low and behold, my friend Brad won 3rd place! What?!? Yay for him, right? I was happy for him and all, but when I realized I was six seconds behind him in time, I got annoyed when I realized I wasn’t getting my damn medal! I should have tripped him or something. I’m just kiddin’ Brad (mostly…), you earned it. He’s in much better shape than me, and is a better jogger than me, and deserved it. But I still wanted it so bad!!!  I’ll take 4th place, I guess. Then my friend Amy won 2nd place in her age group! So I was the only one without a medal.  I only pouted for about a minute, so that’s something. I did want to cry, tho, when I saw them put all those damn medals back into the box. It broke my heart a lil bit. I mean really, what are they gonna do with them? Use them next year? Maybe I will get one then!

Brad and Amy

Brad and Amy with their effing medals.

Oh well, better luck next time! I still feel like a winner on the inside, if that counts!  I would like to point out, if I *had* won a medal, I woulda wore it the whole day, that night at the bar, and I probably woulda slept in it and still be wearing it today as I’m typing this post. I DEFINITELY woulda wore it to work tomorrow!

So what’s next? Well, continue with the C25K program, of course. I’m going to repeat Week 4, aka Death Week, because I definitely don’t feel I’m ready to progress to week 5. Week 4 is the hardest thing ever, but damnit, I’m gonna do it.  They announced another 5K in May and I think we’re gonna do it since this one was so much fun. But there’s something else coming up…

A 10K.   *gulp*

That’s twice what we did Saturday. The thing is, it’s here in my town and a really big deal. The Coca Cola 10K. People from all over come here to run it. I was checking out the site today and some of the times from last year that are still posted are just incredible.  Thankfully, there were some slow people like me there, too. They have a 2 hour limit. Surely I could do six miles, right? I mean, I’ve walked four or five at one time…and with that atmosphere going on, I could do six. Maybe? Thoughts?  I just don’t know if I’m at that level yet. Oh did I mention it’s in two weeks? Yep, May 1st.  Not much time to prepare, but whatcanyado? It’s only once a year and I kinda wanna do it. It sounds SO cool. I’m gonna debate and try to make my decision before Thursday’s weigh-in post. I’ll be accepting votes from you guys on whether to do it or not until then. Feel free to call me crazy, I might just be crazy.

WHO IS THIS PERSON THAT IS POSTING ABOUT BEING EXCITED TO DO 5k’s and 10k’s???? Oh wait, it’s me!!  🙂

Today marks 8 months since I started my new lifestyle! Here are the results for week 32:

Week 32 Results:
Start (9/1/09): 234.8 

Week 28 (3/18/10) 201.1 (-2.2)
Week 29 (3/25/10) 198.6 (-2.5)
Week 30 (4/1/10) 198.2 (-0.4)
Week 31 (4/8/10) 197.1 (-1.1)
Week 32 (4/15/10) 196.7 (-0.4)

Total Loss: 38.1 pounds in 32 weeks

Comments: Normally, after a week that featured extra exercise, a weekend warriors challenge, AND killing myself on Couch to 5K Week 4, I’d be really depressed about these numbers. But, like I said on my WW post, I had some bad food choices and unfortunately, those carried over throughout the week (at times) so I can’t complain too much. I’m just glad I didn’t gain! So all is well here and I’m so close to 195, which is a big deal for me personally 🙂

Other randomness:

I tried the KFC “Double Down” sandwich on Monday. Yes, I called ahead to make sure they had it. Yes, I had the release date on my calendar. No, I’m not ashamed of any of this…lol. It was *so* good!!  I was surprised to hear the grilled only had like 80 calories less than the fried.  Anyway, I got the FRIED because I was going all out for that bad boy. In the end, it was super delicious. I didn’t get the “sauce” (described as a spicy mayo like texture) because it looked creepy and icky. I loved it but realize I can’t eat it that often or else I’ll REALLY be headed out of onederland

Couch to 5K Update: I’m on week 4, and it’s evil and killing me. I’ve had to slow my jogging pace down during the ridiculously long running segments and that’s slowed my overall pace down. This surprises me because I figured with the majority of the time on there running my pace would be better. I’m pretty sure I’m gonna repeat week 4 next week, because I think the idea is you’re supposed to advance to the next week when you’re comfortable, not when you still think about calling an ambulance after finishing.

Real 5K Update: This Saturday I’ll be participating in the Holly Springs Pilgrimage 5K Walk/Run. I’ve been looking forward to this day for months (really)…it’s my FIRST EVER 5k! Now, let me clarify something. I appreciate all the support and how proud several of you are of me but…I don’t want anyone to be misled. I have no intentions of “running a 5k”. I mean I do, eventually, but not this one. This is just me putting my toes into the water and seeing how I can do. My goal is to do a respectable time, jog as much as possible, and get me a starting point so that I’ll have a time to work towards improving for the next 5K. I really am excited for the whole experience and I have two friends doing it along with me to keep me motivated! The only bad part is there’s a chance of rain for Saturday, which would, of course, damper our plans…but luckily the chances are low. (Crossing fingers for sunshine at least that morning!)

I guess that’s about it…Oh, one more thing: I got my bloodwork results back yesterday and my blood count level was like seriously low. Like, scaryness low. I see my doctor today and I know I’ll be given a long lecture about taking my iron pills (I don’t because they make me feel really yucky) but seeing that low number has super scared me. I’ll post any updates if anything big changes (like, if they were to put me in the HOSPITAL to give me blood or something, lol.)  The funniest part was I was getting my results printed yesterday and the receptionist, the RECEPTIONIST even went “ooooh!” when she saw the number.  And then said, “Yeah you do look a little pale.”  Umm, ya think? I’m always pale, probably because I don’t take the dang pills!

Okay yall, have a wonderful weekend!!! Think of me Saturday and pray that I don’t leave the 5K in an ambulance and/or bodybag!! 🙂

Alright…as my previous post stated, last week’s Weekend Warriors challenge was such a horrible failure. Just horrid. So I wanted to repeat it this week. I want to start by saying I had no “calorie goals” because I knew I had a cookout to go to and it would be impossible to really track, but I wanted to do my best.  So with that said, here were my goals and how I did:

Walk/Jog 5 miles  (Done! I did 3 on Saturday in the park (with 2 jogging spurts…whew!) and then 2 miles today on the treadmill today as part of C25K (more on that in a minute)

Complete C25K Week 2 Start C25K Week 4 (this goes with the first goal for the most part…) A week has gone by, and I completed week 3, so I had to alter this goal appropriately. Since MY FIRST 5K (!!!) is this Saturday (!!!!!!!!), I changed my C25K days to Sun-Tue-Thu to give myself a rest day so I don’t die at the 5K on Saturday. That would be quite a Debbie Downer moment, huh?  Anyway, done! (And more on this in a bit…) Likin’ this tease?

-Drink at least 80oz of water each day   Done!  It was right at 80 yesterday, and today was a little over. Success!

-Do 50 Squats, 50 Crunches, and 50 Jumping Jacks both days— Pass! After all the walk/jog moments, I admit I was very weak, but I did them. I’m sure Bob or Jillian would criticize my form and yell at me, but damnit, I tried…and I did 50 of each, both days. Now if I will be able to walk tomorrow or not, we’ll see…

I’m very proud of succeeding on my Weekend Warriors goals and hopefully I made up for last week’s diaster. My only complaint about this weekend was my food choices. The cookout was bad (I mean, it was really fun, but bad diet wise, lol…), with a few desserts and some alcohol, but not the usual crazy binge I would do. I did TRY to cutback, lol.  Today I’ve been so BLAH and have made more bad food choices (effing leftovers…) but again, nothing that you’d see on a Lifetime movie where someone binges. 


So today I started Week 4 (Day 1) of the Couch to 5K program. Basically, it was a 3 min run (jog), lil walk, a FIVE MINUTE run (jog), a lil walk, another 3 min run (jog), and ANOTHER FIVE MINUTE RUN (jog)…Oh My GOD.
I have never, ever, been this close to just collapsing off the treadmill. I’ve joked around about it, but really, the last few steps to get my mileage at an even “2” after the last running section, it was like I was walking on fake legs or stilts. And keep in mind, that was with some walking breaks and it was only 2 miles of the madness. How on earth do you runners do this? I’ve said it before, but I just want to repeat myself, you runners are AMAZING. I am struggling big time (but not quitting) and just stood there afterwards thinking about people that run 5, 10, 13, etc miles at one time and thought, really? Really? I don’t know if I’m a runner, or if I ever can be a runner, but I really wanna see how far I can go in this C25K thing because even tho this hurts, pushing myself is fun. And even tho I’m aching right now, I’m so proud of finishing today’s workout.

Have a great week everyone. And you runners out there….damn, just damn. You go, runners!  You have my UTMOST respect!!   🙂

Week 31 Results:
Start (9/1/09): 234.8 

Week 26 (3/4/10) 206.4 (+2)
Week 27 (3/11/10) 203.3 (-3.1)
Week 28 (3/18/10) 201.1 (-2.2)
Week 29 (3/25/10) 198.6 (-2.5)
Week 30 (4/1/10) 198.2 (-0.4)
Week 31 (4/8/10) 197.1 (-1.1)

Total Loss: 37.7 pounds in 31 weeks

Comments: I’m very satisfied with my restults this week after a less than stellar week. My weekend warriors challenge was a huge fail (more on that in a minute…) and I had a few bad food days (nothing huge, just some bad choices)…because I have had a very stressful week work-wise. In fact, today (Thursday) is shaping up to be possibly the worst day of my life. I suffer from severe anxiety situations (attacks?) and last night was so bad I didn’t eat. And when *I* miss a meal, you know something’s up. But, missing that meal probably helped the weigh-in.  I still haven’t eaten, because my stomach is in knots…and I have no desire at all to do so in fear I’ll throw up. BUT ANYWAY…moving on…

Weekend Warriors Update: Last weekend I had several goals: Get in 5 miles, 80oz of water each day, and 2 strength training sessions. Results: F as in FREAKIN’ FAILURE! I didn’t exercise at all, drank alcohol Saturday night like a hobo lush gone insane, and spent all of Saturday finishing an awesome book (“Horns” by Joe Hill–tremendous) from the comfort of my huge recliner. The result was a huge sick hangover on Sunday from too much vodka and karaoke, so I paid the price…and luckily could barely eat that day. So yes, true and complete failure.
The results: I’m repeating the challenge this weekend. I was gonna write “as punishment” but I really don’t look at it as punishment. I wanted to participate, got off track, and plan on getting it right this time…so that’s not punishment. This new lifestyle is about not quitting when you slip up…and that’s what I’m doing–NOT quitting!

Couch 25K Update:
Last night I finished Week 3, Day 2 and I’m doing very well. I even did a little “bonus” jogging afterwards. It’s tough, and I still hate running, but I’m doing it. Friday is Day 3 and then next week is the DREADED Week 4. I mean really, how do you go from doing 3 minute runs to 3 minute runs, a 90 sec break, then a FIVE MINUTE RUN? That’s quite the leap…but I digress. I’m gonna give it my all and see what I can do. Like my internet trainer and butt kicker Jess says, I CAN DO IT. (At least I hope I can…we’ll see.)  She says it’s mind over matter and I believe that.

So this week definitely had it’s ups and downs, but all is well because the ship is still in the right direction. I am only TWO POINT ONE POUNDS from reaching my “normal” weight of 195. That’s a huge goal for me. When I say “normal” I don’t mean “goal weight”…normal is just the weight I was at for years and years when I was happiest. My next goal is 190, then 185, which is my lowest weight I can remember being in 2008 during a Biggest Loser challenge. Baby steps, baby steps…and I’m crawling closer and closer to each goal everyday.

Have a great weekend everyone. I seriously do not know if I could do this without you. It’s almost been EIGHT MONTHS on this new lifestyle and it feels like my new LIFE.  All of your comments, personal stories, and motivation really keep me going and hold me accountable when I think about going off the path. I couldn’t ask for a more supportive group of blogging buddies and I am sending you all a virtual hug right now thanking you for all you do to help keep me going.

NOW…pray for me that I make it through this day…it’s going to be ROUGH.

Hey all,

Just a quick post to get in my Weekend Warriors #2 goals. This is the second time that Brandon has hosted this challenge to keep us on track, since weekends are usually the time the train goes off the caloric track!

My goals:

-Walk/Jog 5 miles
-Complete C25K Week 2 (this goes with the first goal for the most part…)
-Drink at least 80oz of water each day
-Do 50 Squats, 50 Pushups, and 50 Jumping Jacks both days

As you can see, there is no “calorie” goal. I’m going to try to do as well as possible eating wise, but I have several roadblocks to overcome so I’m gonna try to make up for some damage in exercise 🙂
On a related note, my semi-calorie-goal is to only have one Easter treat–a lone Reese egg. I bought it at Wal-Mart today. They are my favorite. I used to buy 3 packs of eggs, six to a pack. Today I bought one single egg. Progress right?

Happy Easter to all my fellow Weekend Warriors…and everyone else too!

Week 30 Results:
Start (9/1/09): 234.8 

Week 26 (3/4/10) 206.4 (+2)
Week 27 (3/11/10) 203.3 (-3.1)
Week 28 (3/18/10) 201.1 (-2.2)
Week 29 (3/25/10) 198.6 (-2.5)
Week 30 (4/1/10) 198.2 (-0.4)

Total Loss: 36.6 pounds in 30 weeks

Comments: Sadly, this isn’t an April Fool’s weigh-in.  A loss is a loss, right? It’s annoying when you follow the rules AND do a pathetic attempt at running and barely lose. BUT, I lost, so that’s a plus. Also, I’ve had three great weeks in a row so I knew this was coming.

In other news…I started the Couch to 5K Program last week. Completed week one pretty good. Week two (this week) I’ve been struggling. Last night was really bad. Maybe I’m not a runner? Even though it’s definitely more jogging. I dunno what’s going on, perhaps it’s the fact I still do the treadmill on “off” c25k days but I was stiff as a board last night. In fact, near the end, I thought I was gonna fall and roll off the treadmill a la a “Biggest Loser” contestant on week one. But I guess it’d be hard to “roll off” the treadmill with it going so fast, haha. I’m not ready to give up, but I think I’ll take a day off from the treadmill today and see how Friday goes.

Congrats to all that did Mary’s workout pledge yesterday. It sounded fun, well as fun as exercise can be, lol. I had a terrible self esteem moment last night when I almost collapsed off the treadmill and then read stories of everyone going NINETY MINUTES and most of them running the whole time! And I was barely running 90 seconds? I hope to one day be able to do half of that! Yall are amazing…but you know this 🙂



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