Hello all and a happy belated New Year!

I’ve been trying to write this post for over a week but the real job kept getting in the way of my writing time.  THE NERVE!  Anyway, the more time passed by, the less my big return to blogging seemed to mean. I remember it was only a few months ago that I “returned” and that lasted like two weeks before I was back to my old bad habits of bad foods and no exercise.  And with that I gained about ten pounds or so.

I’m sure it’s no shock that with the New Year, my #1 resolution was diet/exercise. I hate the word “diet”, and I don’t consider myself to be on a diet now, but I am back to exercising and counting calories. I’m attempting to do light breakfasts and lunches, way light snacks, and then a normal dinner, since I usually cook stuff that’s hard to measure calories of in the entire dish.  I actually started last week, and I weighed in this morning unofficially, and it said I was down 3 pounds. That made me happy. BUT, I do not want Monday to be my weigh-in day because Monday’s are bad enough without having to have your weight get you down even more so I’m thinking Wed or Thursday. I realize this could mean on Thursday I could have not lost 3 pounds, but that’s okay–there’s no rush.

For the purposes of record keeping, my New Year’s “start weight” (hate that term, but it is what it is…) was 218.7.   I’m not happy about that number, but what can ya do? Thanks Christmas goodies and Thanksgiving and alcohol and snacks galore and no exercise! Remember when I was in “onederland?” That was so awesome, but seems like ages ago now. It feels SO good to be back. I’m fine with losing slowly and steadily, as long as I move in the downward direction!

Speaking of, I wanted to say a few things I’ve learned over the last few months. I am never going to be “skinny.”  It’s just not gonna happen. I’m not built like that, I’ll always be a little nugget, and that’s fine. Can I please get back into my 36″ pants tho? I felt SHARP back then! My goal in diet and exercise, etc is to get back into my older clothes and feel healthier and all that jazz. I’m not a vain person, but I hate when my “fat pants” are close to not buttoning and that’s the situation we’re in right now. My self esteem is so low and when it’s low I tend to stay at home all the time and it’s a vicious circle because then I’m lazy and eat more.

I also wanted to post about my New Year’s Resolutions!!  This year I did all my normal ones: calorie counting, exercise, less alcohol, more writing, being more organized, etc. But I stole from Jeremy at StellarPath.net when he posted his resolutions he did a January goal to make a big task not seem so impossible. I’ve done the same thing. I’m not going to bore you with the list, but I will be doing updates on how I’m coming along each month.  Also, instead of having 14,948 resolutions, I made a “to do” list full of stuff I’ve been meaning to get done but haven’t (especially since moving and in writing projects, etc) and I even did some January goals on the bigger ones in that section, too.  Some of my “to do” tasks are as silly as organizing my out of control Itunes library to walking 25 miles this month.  So random, just like me!

One last thing: exercise. I’ve tried to be a runner and maybe someday I will be one (doubt it) but every time I try it, I end up hating it. Like, hate is an understatement. So I’ve started back walking in an attempt to get more weight off as well as to build up to jogging to see how that goes. But I’ve also discovered the exercise that I actually enjoy is dancing (in the aerobics way). I love Zumba. I love the Michael Jackson Wii game and played it for an hour or so almost every night this week. It’s the best game I’ve ever played! And I’ve noticed my heartrate/breathing is much more elevated while doing these exercises than while walking, so surely that has to be a good thing, right? I’m just trying to find an exercise I don’t fixate on and dread about and this is one I find fun. Plus, I have a ton of DVD’s for this activity!

I guess that’s about it. So I’m back!!!  Again, I’m not on a “diet” but I’m back to living more healthy and watching what I eat.  We’re currently snowed in with about six-eight inches of snow right now. Did I make snow cream? Yes. I ate a little and it was tasty. Will I make some chocolate chip cookies tonight? Perhaps, but I won’t go crazy on them. I’m going to live life and have fun, but try to do so in a healthier way with more activity and lose pounds along the way. I’m not setting a ridiculous goal (for me) of “walking/running 500 miles” for 2011 like I did in 2010, because that’s just not me. That was my bad, but maybe I learned something from it! I think when I set goals that high, for me, I get frustrated and eventually give up. Then I feel guilty and that leads to me not posting, and I hate that because I love the blogging community on here. I’ve met some really cool, supportive, fun people and am so glad I’ve been able to keep up with yall via Facebook! (Shout out!!!!!) 

I hope 2011 is a wonderful year for all of you, myself included, and that at the end of the year we can say we lived it, had fun, and accomplished most of what we set out to do at the start.  

 Let’s do this!